Thursday, October 21, 2010
The "other" you is really almost like a completely different person. I guess the official term is "alter-ego", but I think this really goes way beyond that. In an addiction it becomes more pathological than a simple alter-ego. Whatever it is, I call mine "Little Monster", and he comes out of his box then the second phase or Acting Out part of my addiction kicks in (that's when all the nasty stuff happens).
Little Monster isn't like Normal Neal at all. He is VERY manipulative, VERY demanding, VERY clever, and VERY, VERY naughty. He should have been a lawyer I suppose, because he seems to be able to win just about any argument you might care to engage him in. He can twist things around so quickly - I almost always give in:
Neal: "Gotta stay away from anything suggestive today"
Little Monster: "Right. Tow the line, my man"
Neal: "Yep. Gonna do it right this time and stay outta trouble"
Little Monster: "I'm right there with ya! Fill your day with something productive to keep your mind on the right track. You could make some goodies for the Missionaries today. That's a wholesome activity!"
Neal: "You're right. That's a great idea! I make killer Chocolate Chip Cookies. Let's see - oh rats! I'm outta chocolate chips."
Little Monster: "Dude, Wal Mart is just around the corner - it will just take a second."
Neal: "Yea, just a second. We're off."
Little Monster: "Heh Heh! I'll show you cute. Just wait til we get home...."
...... and I love you...